More food for thought and I need a sounding boardFor me personally, that's not to say I don't wish that I could only worry about what time I need to be at the library's circle time or what snacks to make for the play date. Because you know I wish I could be (my town's) very own June Cleaver. But it just won't work for us, but I don't believe its because my husband doesn't love me enough. Do you? And he works very hard. And so do I (no body knows the daily b.s. I put up with (at work)!! But I do it because I like contributing to something valuable,and I'll be able to provide a better future for these monkeys and us. Anyway, that whole thing has been on my mind today. Thanks Dear Abbey for listening
"I'm better than you because...." on both sides of the debate. While working moms state that it is much harder to work outside the home and stay at home moms state that working moms don't provide the love and attention that their children need, it seems that we have lost site of the fact that we, as empowered women, now have a choice in the matter. Just a short while ago, maybe 50 years ago, it was just assumed that women would marry, have children and stay at home. This shouldn't be a matter of who loves their kids more. It should be an argument over, are you happy with your choice? And if the answer is no, what can you do to change your circumstances?
I have personally known working moms that chose to work outside the home, worked because they had to financially, and worked because they genuinely love what they do. All have been undoubtedly devoted to their children. Whether they work because they want to or have to, at the end of the day, they love their children. I have also known working moms that hated working and suffered an immeasurable "mommy guilt" for leaving their children at daycare, with sitters or family members.
I am a working mother by choice. I tried the stay at home mom gig twice and it's just not for me. I love my children with all my being but I am not a happy camper at home all day with two children. I am too social, I thrive on adult interaction and conversation. When I had Ivan, I stayed at home for the first four months and while it had it's good times, for the most part, I was miserable. In fact, I attacked my husband on a daily basis with a barrage of questions when he came home. "How was your day? What did you have for lunch? Tell me about your day. How did the such and such deal go? Who did you work with today? Tell me about your meeting. Anything, anything, anything!" It was so overwhelming to him that he would have to tell me to slow down. I really missed adult interaction. I loved being there for my son's first smile, rolling over and first giggle but I REALLY missed the camaraderie of having co-workers.
When Luci came to town, my business had just closed and I was in a real dilemma about what to do with myself. I had no educational degree and the only skills I had involved doing the thing that I had to walk away from in my own business. I was really stuck. I was 28 years old with no direction. I was terrified that my loss of income would negatively affect our family, but somehow we managed. We made lifestyle adjustments and I became more frugal in meal planning, grocery shopping and household shopping. I stayed at home with the kids for eight months and it was actually better the second time around. I made more of a daily schedule, talked to friends on the phone, and took the kids everywhere. I also made plans to go back to school full time.
I still stand by the fact that I am not stay at home mom material. I love what I do, really like my co-workers and miss my kids when I 'm at work. The old saying that "Absence makes the heart grow fonder" applies here. The more I am away from them, the more quality time I think we spend together. Since we are not together 24/7, I try to make the time we are together really count.
I think the bottom line is that we need to stop pointing fingers to make ourselves look better. We need to stop judging other women because of their situations. (I am guilty of this and I am working on it.) We need to quit making assumptions about others. Instead of tearing each other down, we need to provide love, support and understanding to one another. We need to be a foundation of support for our fellow sisters and remember that above all, we all love our children.